A strong disdain for all things healthy I fuck my life up It's all that I believe I don't feel right like it's not over Another year gone A stone cold shoulder I could move on I just need closure But what if I'm wrong just want you closer I'm so alone Feel you on my body when it's just me in my room And you don't need nobody but you know I'm here for you And everything around me's feeling like it's falling through I'm pushing my shit to the side 'Cause fuck it I'm barely alive Just wanna be numb for the night 'Cause you and my drugs coincide I still feel the same I never realized Told you I loved you it didn't feel right Starting to wonder what I can take I'm Out in the water without a lifeline Maybe there's something that I won't wake up from It wasn't intentional I just took too much Chasing a feeling that I don't get enough I don't gotta deal with the fucking outcome I'm so alone Feel you on my body when it's just me in my room And you don't need nobody but you know I'm here for you And everything around me's feeling like it's falling through I'm pushing my shit to the side 'Cause fuck it I'm barely alive Just wanna be numb for the night 'Cause you and my drugs coincide