Im trying to fight through the tension full of highs and the lows
Never cared for opinions kept my eyes on the road
And Had to dig deep to get the life i was owed
Had to cut a couple ties wasn't right for my soul
Keeping tunnel vision
Fighting for position
Asking for forgiveness never asking for permission
Trying to mend wounds and I'm giving it time
And yet I keep my head up cause it's bigger than life
Ocean water waves
Turn the page in the book
Another chapter written
Trying to fit the description
I wonder if its a curse from the slaves that they took
I'm hoping that they listened
Twenty Twenty convictions
I'm just trying to pin it but couldn't I had to say something
Sideways comments in driveways
Missing the sidewalk and end up in our way
We just trying to live don't even be in y'all way
Too many patterns
Coincidences
Upped my defenses
And built some fences
Two years ago
Saw too much bullshit to let it go
Some cruel Intentions
Things got expensive
We saw it coming
We learned the lessons
From the game they play
I been ducking off
Trying to stay out the way
Off the grid spend some time with the fam and my brothers kids
Make up for some time missed
Im trying to fight through the tension full of highs and the lows
Never cared for opinions kept my eyes on the road
And Had to dig deep to get the life i was owed
Had to cut a couple ties wasn't right for my soul
Keeping tunnel vision
Fighting for position
Asking for forgiveness never asking for permission
Trying to mend wounds and I'm giving it time
And yet I keep my head up cause it's bigger than life
Ok I spent the last year trying get on my feet
Was down bad never thought about admitting defeat
Tell em read em and weep, I just needed my peace
Music was home but I felt like ripping my lease
Its like, I'm honest my problems don't end in solace
Way too far from flawless and way too many hydraulics
All these ups and downs and never seeing your harvest
These are just the cycles of another starving artist
I pray to God that see the garden of eden
Ive gotten a little green like I got a garden in Sweden
Ive guarded the bittersweet and i bit it when i was teething
Regardless of what was said but success is really the sweetest
Its kinda like a wedding cake, way too many layers
Started giving flagrants cause its way too many lay ups
Finally paid attention now it think its time they pay us
I been paying dues now and it think its time they pay up