Sometimes I wish I could call you up
But I know we ain't spoke in months
So I delete your contact acting like
I ain't memorize your phone number
If we could link just one more time
I think that would be enough
I just can't explain myself
It's like I hate you
But I ain't mad at all
I still keep your picture in my wallet
I just can't put up a front
For this I'm wrong, I'm sorry
But know my pride outweighs my heart
I can't pretend you ain't did me wrong
And I can't claim I been a saint at all
I wonder why I can't give a fuck
Sometimes I wonder if I know how to love
Steady holding on
I could take you places
Baby just hold my arm
And like Marvin said
We goin' get it on
From night time to dawn
Don't try to hide it now
I know you been loving my charm
But why you keep your guard up
Yea I know I scarred ya
But since then
I been tryna bring good karma
I make mistakes
Same way you make mistakes
Only difference is I don't rub it in your face
So quick to point a finger when shit goin' astray
Breaking shit all over the place
Now we 3 hours late
And you duck and dodge the help that I be throwing your way
While I'm ducking, dodging shoes I gave you Valentines Day
Like everything I said and did
Meant everything till today
I feel like you can just forget bout us and part your own way
Part your own way
Look around if you can't find
I'm on the way to better place
Even when I'm thinking that it's over
24 hours later you be tryna call my phone up
And tell me how I'm wrong for not tryna save us no more
I'm not bout to chase you
You say that you done
Aight it's done
I'm not ever gonna hold ya
If I'm really what's always fucking you over
I rather die than be the reason why you only wanna be alone
Plus
You cry every single night
Tears coulda formed an ocean
How you think that make me feel
When you tell me I'm the worst
I put my all, I've been real
I would have gave you everything
Have my last meal
Have my last bill
We both hurt, I never cared
I made sure that you was healed
Steady taking time to be alright
I tell myself that she just being real weird
She missed her medication
She don't hate you
Her mind is everywhere
Forgave when you hate
Cus when you love
I feel lifted in the air
So many times we took each other back
I know to everyone it's strange
But crazy thing is if I'm only speaking facts
I wouldn't wanna have it any other way
Still wishing it could work out
I just wanna say
Why you keep a hold of time
Why you keep a hold of time
Can you please let go of time
Can you please let go of time
And I keep wasting my time with somebody like you
And I'm done
I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna talk to you
I don't wanna hear from you
No puedo creer que eh perdido mi tiempo con este imbécil
Refreshing memories of my adolescence
Just to have a better admirance of those average lessons
I was taught
Uh uh
A bigger appreciation was added to my blessings
Now it's all tragic checking's
Playing chess with other checkmates
Checkmating who was thought to be the king
Now I'm out here second guessing
I'm the one that's on, not the pawn
As well as wondering if everything is as great as expected
Cus last week my necklace
Was so precious to this special female
Now she don't care for details
Off track the convo derails
No more wondering if I'm bigger than Goldlink's
Or if those gold links will help me get bigger than Chinx
RIP to them fallen soldiers
Call em over to ask to broaden shoulders
Load the pistol
Kiss of death
Lips to trigger
Hold your breathe
Butterflies in my stomach and butterflies in hers
But if I
Lose my mind
Then I start losing mine
Them cockroaches grow inside
A hate corrupts my mind
There's flowers deep in hers
The only thing that works for her is them curves
There's butterflies within the world
Now look ahead
They leading us to the side that's opposite of urn
We all goin' see the future
Kama Sutra
Fucking her, fucked me over
Karma suits ya
Saw myself kissing on her neck
Second guessing once more
If that piece was a bigger blessing
Butterflies up in the necklace
Questioning, but what if I lose that piece?
Heading back to the side of the urn
Cus I'm lying
Mistruth leads to dying
There's a fire deep inside me and I'm burning
Glorifying any accessories as pieces
When really a piece of Quran is stored up inside it
I'm asking God if shit is all the same
I'm fucking stupid
Misusing the truth to help me get some booty
Sexual homi, for the punani they'll catch a body
And more talk of my silver shining
Goin' make me lose my mind
And so them cockroaches overcome them butterflies inside me
Who am I see?
Said who am I see?
Said who am I see?