Lately I've been feelin' lonely I've been manifestin' friends that finally check up on me Is that too much to ask Still processing all the trauma from college And childhood problems How long will this pain last I'll prolly keep myself busy Doing 12 plus things Cuz it takes a lot of energy To process things It's healthy to grieve But can I have privacy I should always be happy with a name like Jubilee Sometimes I question What's the point of all of this Meaninglessly existing Spirits in bodies temporarily breathing We chose to come here But most of us aren't truly living Workin' for the man, whose system screws the slaves it's breeding Row your boat gently down the stream Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily Life is but a lucid dream Why do I feel like I gotta fix society People's pain weigh heavily on me I feel everything My empathy Comes with anxiety The only way I feel free Is when I deeply breathe I realize nothing ever really dies Everything's a cycle Souls live through eternity And half of me Doesn't wanna give a fuck But the other half of me Really does Oh what a sweet life living in dichotomy That's why I reconditioning to live positively Part of me in the future Other part in the past I do my best to stay present And make the good times last Don't wanna go too fast And miss the lessons of class of Earth I chose a family that say "fam come first" But that's in theory cuz none of us really know our worth How can we connect when we're stuck in our own universe I'm closing the distance break that generational curse Anybody else feel like the black sheep And is the rest of the herd even happy We found out the good shepherd's imaginary All religions say that God dwells inside of me And that's what I believe And the rest is common mythology The real heaven and hell are the ones we create Through the thoughts we think And the words we say So will your choice be to suffer Or to get free today Either way you decide How you take up space