I'm close to crying over you
And I know you haven't given me a second thought
You pop in and out of my life
Just like my crippling addiction to pot
I need to get my shit together
If I ever really want you to stay
Things aren't getting better
I wouldn't say they're getting worse
But they're definitely not staying the same
I did everything in my power to reach out to you via phone
If this doesn't work I guess I'll get in my car
Maybe I'll start shopping at the place I know you work
God I sound scary
Or am I being paranoid
I'm terrified of taking things to far
Depression shows all it's usual signs
You're a shitty con artist
I know not to be alone
I'm not restarting from the bottom
I just got to the middle and stopped
That's the story of my life don't you know
I am upside down
I am in a cloud
You see in my head you're a doorway
It's clear I'm not ready to come down
Sometimes I play with a small rubber ball
And somehow it makes me feel sane
Cause if the world explodes I've been wasting my time
I was barely alive today
I feel so much because of and for you
And I've rarely even seen your face
We exist next to a stream and that stream will keep moving
Without regards to what we create
I am upside down
I am in a cloud
You see in my head you're a doorway
Maybe I'm about to come down
Someone tell Charlie Sheen to calm down
You've made enough headlines for awhile
I'm so bored when I should really be busy
I'm always in the mentality that I'm on trial
I need to learn how to take care of myself
I've grown up in every other way
It's such a fatal flaw in my design
I'm the new model no one liked
So they threw me away
I am upside down
I am in a cloud
You see in my head you're a doorway
It's clear I'm never gonna come down
I am upside down
I am in a cloud
You see in my head you're a doorway
It's clear I'm never gonna come around