And I am afraid of my grandmother's notes 'Cause someday they will stop showing up A sweet note and a couple of bucks says "I love you" But the dead cannot love And this grave, it means nothing to you There's something sweet about the flowers and perfume I assumed you'd live forever but if you are never gone Then everything you do will never leave a mark ♪ And I will never understand my twitch Or why anxiety is hanging on to every situation with an iron grip If you want peace, you will find nothing in me 'Cause every day I am afraid I'll see my family fade away Every decision that I make is making it harder to sleep If you want peace, you will find nothing in me ♪ Who'd have thought that one of us would lose their lives Oh, every night I lay awake and think That I'm the one that should have died Ever since you left I've just been trying to make you proud If nothing else then maybe I can Take some pride in what I've done myself And I will never understand my twitch Or why anxiety is hanging on to every situation with an iron grip If you want peace, you will find nothing in me 'Cause every day I am afraid I'll see my family fade away Every decision that I make is making it harder to sleep If you want peace, you will find nothing in me And I will never understand my twitch Or why anxiety is hanging on to every situation with an iron grip If you want peace, you will find nothing in me And I tried to find that in you